Random update

Hi all!!
It's just a random update from me.When I feel so lonely and loss and I could not find anyone to share my story, I then realized that this is the best place for me to write anything I want. I am now being confuse and uncertain. I do not know where am I actually heading to. I have a dream but I am not sure that I am allowed to do so or not. Too many factors to be considered. I sometimes feel that I am not as lucky as other people. But, as I look down, I then realized that there are so many people out there who are less fortunate than me. To think that way, I feel grateful. As for that, it is so important to take everything positively. Because, anything that is happening to you, it's started from your mind. So, I am now in the mission to have a positive perception on things as a whole. Sometimes, the way you think is being influenced by many factors, i.e; externally and internally. But, as far as I am concerned, I really need to put something in my mind to be who I want to be. I sometimes lose with my own mission. I do not know why was I so weak. I want to be stronger. I have few people that I really adore and I hope I can at least think and be like them. But, as I go along the way, I could see that they are actually many people who are still concern about me. I then had this feeling :
"Why should I be so pathetic to be with someone that appreciate me less?"

I know everything. I know the fact that as human, I cannot get everything that I want. But, dear God, please give me more strength and courage to face my many days to come. You have granted me with a lovely mother+bestfriend, nice girl friends and nice aunties. I pray for the best because I know that You are the only ONE who knows the best for me.

Pretty please, Dear Allah.

xoxo,
Deena